That line is dead and I’m not on it

WHELLLLP, it’s August 24 and I’m still only three quarters of the way through the first draft of the book that was supposed to be on sale right now so… that didn’t work out. I mean, giving yourself deadlines is good, right? But there’s that whole REALITY thing out there where you gotta figure out money and kids and surviving a pandemic in a city where you witnessed not one, not two, not three or four but more than a handful of maskless outdoor parties in public spaces.

My kids are not only bored–and I’m running out of ideas, ya’ll–but getting feisty and malcontented and … physically aggressive. So my main focus–again, other than getting enough money to buy groceries–has been tamping down on those biting, scratching, carrying on like an actual animal behaviors.

How do you write for fun when the world is falling apart? How do you write a feel-good fluffy luv story when your feral child is quite literally biting your leg?

Props to the people who are getting it done. But I am not among you.

I’m not giving up. Just… accepting reality. Again.

False advertising.

Is Writer’s Memory Block a Thing?

I’m more than three quarters through my latest WIP and I just want to be done. Like just finish it and worry about how much it sucks in editing. But there are more THINGS that need to happen and characters need to get their shit together and like… a climax and denouement should find their way in there.

The problem is that I’m doing that thing I always do when it takes me a long time to write a whole piece. I kinda like forget what happened before and like… who some of the side characters are and what their deal is and did I close their loop or is there some plot hole somewhere? Also, I had this whole side story about one of the girls in a relationship with an older man but decided I hated it and closed that loop with, “Yeah, I thought we were like, having a thing but mostly, I was having a crush and he was ignoring me.”

This is why editing exists. I just want to get to the shitty unsatisfying end so I can begin again with MASSIVE EDITS and CLARIFYING OF PLOT and WHO WAS THAT DUDE AGAIN?

But it’s August and I’m almost done with the first draft so… there’s still a chance this thing gets done by the end of the summer.